Will I ever be happy again?

Will I ever unburden by the heavy weight of loss?

Will I ever find solace in the simplest joys of life?

Will I ever be able to experience genuine laughter?

Will happiness ever find its way back to me

Will this melancholy be my eternal companion?

These questions left me uncertain of what lies ahead

In the wake of my darling Mum’s sudden departure

I navigated the days and went through the motions

but the spark of joy has been extinguished completely

laughter lost its lustre and smile felt forced on my face

even the smallest pleasures were tinged with sorrow

as the intense pain remained and haunted my every step

I fear the happiness I once knew have lost to me forever

In the midst of my deepest sorrow and greatest suffering

I struggle to imagine a future where happiness will reside

because a part of me had irrevocably lost with her passing

I wonder if I will ever be able to piece myself back together

the hurt was so damn hard and I grappled with desperation

I cannot shake the feeling that happiness is an elusive dream

a dream has slipped through my fingers, forever out of reach

Will I ever be happy again?

I was filled with huge doubts after such a devastating loss

in my quest for happiness and a sense of true joy again

I felt the world around me appeared colourless and lifeless

I dreaded that my heart will forever be shrouded in sadness

I asked how I will ever be happy again without her by my side

when the very source of my joy was ripped away from me